Hug More.

Hi. How’s it going?? Long time no read. Sorry. I feel uninspired to write anything lately. I go through those phases. Just have nothing to say that’s worth anyone’s time.
So welcome back.

For the moment, I have a new writing location. I feel like Carrie Bradshaw because I’m sitting in the oasis (the only place I can get internet until my new airport card arrives this week) at the desk, in front of the window, on my apple laptop. So suddenly I feel inspired.

Unfortunately I feel inspired to write about sad topics.
Death.

Today I went to a funeral.
My boss, who I’ve been very close to for many years, lost his mother in a battle with cancer. She left behind 7 kids and her husband. She’s lived a beautiful life and had all 7 of her children by her side for the last few weeks.

So I feel very sad today. I feel the most sad though, for her husband. He has been her husband since 1945. When I think about him without his near lifetime companion, my eyes well up. When he told me today that she’ll be laid to rest on a cliff in Chile overlooking the ocean, I saw peace in his eyes. Then he told me that she was the best companion there was, and his eyes welled up with tears. So did mine.

So after a long day, all I wanted to do was come home and hug my husband and try not to think about such a far off lifetime. Instead, just sit in today’s happiness and love that we have together right now. That’s all that’s important.

After hugs, I made us a nice Ukranian dinner (because I’m Ukranian now). Obviously.

After dinner, normally I’d sit on my computer for too long. But because of my internet connection problem, I’ve resorted to less internet use for the week. Since I’m not very full of motivation today, I figured it’s a good time to catch up on tivo that I never seem to look at. Looking through the list, I was glad to see that Marley and Me had recorded in HD. Why not watch that? James was doing his thing, I know he’s not trying to watch it with me, so what better time than now to knock it out?

Not until after watching the movie in it’s entirety, did I remember the words of people who’d seen it…”it’s so sad,” “he dies,” “blah blah blah.”

Yes, well I certainly wish these words would have rang in my head before I decided to watch this movie.

Now let me tell you how much I despise my dog. Daily, I want to kick him. Regularly, we want to post on Craig’s List and ad for a “rampage in adolescence, take him now.”

Despite the misery that he brings, somehow, I’m also used to him. Now don’t get me wrong, the few times he’s been gone when I got home, it doesn’t seem weird, at all. I’m totally fine with it. But since he’s here, I deal.

So apparently, coming off a funeral, not the ideal day to watch Marley and Me. Oddly enough, after I tortured myself through dog death, all I wanted to do was hug my stupid dog.

Ah life, it becomes so real sometimes what tragedies it can bring.

Hug your companions daily. Don’t fight. Be happy that you’ve been blessed with love. Smile more. Rest more. Appreciate what you have and always have hope.

 

This entry was posted on Wednesday, October 21st, 2009 at 12:17 am and is filed under Hope & Inspiration, The Rampage.
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